So, Luka is like 60% done. >w< I'm happy with the progress so far. XD Well....let's say I didn't get to the 'hard' part yet. x.x And since I'm making this thing out of scratch...... I hope I don't fuck it up LOL And yeah, pleather is a pain in the ass. But it wasn't THAT bad yet. XD I will try to post progress pic as soon as I can. And making Luka made me realized how FAT i am D;;;;;;; I will probably end up being FAT Luka....*sobs*

Some of Luka I saw on Cure are <333 Their Body are like perfect XD like Aira-san....Dude, Her Luka is GODLY! <3 I'm drooling over her legs <33 because my own legs are as huge as the great lake. XD Damn it...More Pressure

Anyway.....katlovescookies maybe I will try NYC again, like Next Wed?...I don't think I will get Luka done by this wed D; but I will try my best though.... I just don't want to rush it x.x Because man, I really love when you take my pictures. And For me, having Great photographer like you shooting my pics, I feel honored. And I think if I wore just bad cosplay, It would be like insulting your skills. So.... XD I want to make it GOOD. XD I hope you don't mind. <3

First of all please Excuse my Language today. I'm really pissed off. And...yes..I must let this out.

THERE ARE REASONS WHY I want to Stop Cosplay Hetalia.

Some motherfuckers think they KNOW Everything fucking shit in the world. People Who Full of themselves (and in this case....that person is not even THAT good)

If you wanted to criticise others, then you gotta make yourself Stay in the level that OTHERS Accepted Your works. NOT The level YOU think you were.

And as far as I'm seeing.......this person....is totally delusional with HER Perfection. Someone need to slap that person in the face..so she could at least wake up. But.....since i've been observing....I don't think only a slap in the face would be enough.  

Called me Bitch all you like. I don't care. Because I'm speaking the TRUTH. And seriously.....I think i agree with ppl who called that person 'full of him/herself'.....I don't think that person will ever reflected what she/he said or did. 

But if THAT PERSON POKE HIS/HER FUCKING NOSE INTO MY OPINION POST AND TRY TO SHOOT IT DOWN ONE MORE TIME.....I FUCKING SWEAR TO MY MARYJANE SHOES. THAT WOULD BE THE DAY THAT PERSON KNOW WHAT THE WORD 'BITCH' ACTUALLY MEAN.

 

Last min mind-changing is....really suck. LOL My aunt told me to bring costume tomorrow x.x Well...I have nothi......wait...I have too many costumes but none of them are work-friendly x.x  I guess I will just have to grab something in the the closet tomorrow D: (might be Allen Walker-D.Gray Man)

And Janelle is borrowing my Lightning tomorrow x.x I think it should be okay.....since i want to remake it anyway...even if she ripped it...(not that i want it to happen...)...

x.x I don't know any more.....gah.......

I want to sew...........but I'm too lazy. WHY THIS IS HAPPENING?????? *slaps self left and right* I think it's something to do with my lack of motivation/inspiretion. D: Even though I digged thru My Cosplay Idols' Galleries on CURE. It's not help much. Even their epicness couldn't get my lazy ass moving.....this is BAD. Seriously x.x I'm starting to doubt myself in doing all these.....WHY do i still keep on doing Cosplay?.....I want to say because I love it. But that reasons is not good enough for the time being. I don't even feel like I'm doing any good job on cosplay anymore............THIS IS REALLY BAD....D;

I might sound like Attention whore but Someone give me some motivation plz? Encouragement words are welcome....I really need it.  
 

Sorry guys, because it was raining so hard, i don't want to risk and soak my cosplay D; So we did casual outfits instead. XD (that's why i said 'ALMOST')

Clicky on the pinkies to the mini-shoot Post <333

Sorry about last entry, I was very frustrated.

So….a talking with my boss a.k.a. my aunt today, gave me some conclusions to stuffs. Though there are a lot of stuffs I need to figure out.

Okay, some bad news….

If I wanted to go to Anext 2010, I might not be able to go to Gakuen shoot anymore. D; So have to think it over very hard.

Next, No Halloween cosplay this year for me. Because it’s Saturday. And Saturday means WORK…. ;.; it will be too busy to change into cosplay. And if I can’t do it 100% I rathered not do it at all.

Alrigth some good news.
xalgizx is back at home(in Thailand) from Japan. X3 Lots of stuffs for me <33333 thank you, sis!

And I might be going up to NYC this Wednesday. Anyone want to meet up? (it might be next week…but I want to go this week though)

....that's it for now..i think....

BECAUSE IF YOU DID, I WILL FUCKING FLIP AT YOU.

unfortunately, I have a fucking life. I have a job to keep. have bills to pay. So I can't go any fucking meet up. GET THAT?

So Stop Fucking ask me already. It's Fucking pissed me off.

And yes...I'm fucking pissed right now.
 

Unfortunately, I was raised to be this way. Why would you compare yourself to someone that was worse than you than compare yourself to someone who was better? If you did that, yes it might make you feel good for a while. But in the end, you still not improving anything and didn't learn anything.

And Why Would I do that?

Some people do not understand WHY I remake some of my cosplays, some said it wasn't necessary . Yes…maybe for some of you. But for me it DOES.  Nothing in this world is perfect, so was my cosplay. And I did it because I CARE about my cosplay. And also because I love the characters I cosplayed. When I love or like something, I always want to do my best for it.

Again, I know my hobbies cost a lot of money. But it is MY Money that I spent. So stop whinning to me that  your parents won’t pay for your cosplay sprees. If you don’t know your limit, then I can’t help you.  

How many times I bitch about this?

I know it’s more than 3.

And how many times I will be bitching about it?

Well….i will again if some of these brats repeat the shit…

Sorry I bitched about these shit again. DX it really annoyed my nerves. And thoese people who said “Not to compare themselves with those Japanese cosplayes, Because They ARE Japanesse”

Well, I have quite some Cosplay Idols that are Japanese. And I admired them because They are not only use their PRETTY FACES in good use, they also MADE their own costumes. And they always improve their works. And What’s wrong with admiring their talents along with their pretty faces? (But yes they are a lot of japanese cosplayers that BUY premade costumes. )

I have my limit of liking people. They are my Idols, doesn’t mean I will lick their ass as if it was some lollipops. Some people went so far to be a fan of some ‘famous Cosplayers’ I won’t name them since some of you prob already knew who I’m talking about. They are so goddamn blind…and worship everything those Cosplayers done. Only a slap in the face prob won’t help much.

*sighs*

Ah well…… must go to sleep…..I miss my fabric store trip today, it made me sad ;.;  

actually since yesterday. But I have other things to do. LOL Well...my internet is back for the time being.

Only i will say for this series is.......

IT'S FRINGIN AWESOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and sparkling with gayness 8D

Bhuahahaha... Must cosplay Setsuna! <333

that's all XD
 

Thanks all the comments from last entry, I'm still feeling sick and depressed but a little bit better now.

Apparently Heisuke can lift up my spirit <333  From the original



It's only 80% though...still have some works to do. the Purple thingy and the bag XD but that's the start. <333

Those Chibi Keychains.....come to daddy soon <3333

well, my oneside headached stopped this afternoon after I woke up. Thanks to some medicines I took before go to bed. though it made me slept in alittle bit. Almost late for the movie! XDDD

So I catched 2 of the movies, Zombieland and Jennifer's Body. I love both of them X3 I don't feel like it didn't worthed my money. Zombieland made me LOL'd so much XD it's such a refreshing movie! on the other hand, Jennifer's body I was there for Megan Fox. XD Totally biased FFF <333 I just love her! XD but the movie itself was a little bit predictable. >.< So by the time it's done...it was like 6 pm ._.

Anyway, after came back I took some more med cause I still feel alittle dizzy x.x It probably taking effect soon. ...so I might come online for the chat alittle late tonight, if i fell asleep....since I didn't take a nap yet today x.x damn I sound like an old man LOL I need a nap in the afternoon on my day off D; 

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When you realized you sew more than 32 completed cosplays in nine months, after looked back to all the works you did, the efforts you put in or the money you spent...it made you wonder... how did you mangaed all these and still living the life all by yourself?

I really want to know that myself >.<

I'm feeling sick and alone lately. Maybe it's just nearly those of the month. Or maybe Fall season is getting to me. Everywhere I look was so lonely and sad. x.x I don't get it myself but...yeah...

I guess I can manage this long.... I will be fine soon. x.x Whenever I get out of this slump ....

Ps. xalgizx is flying to Japan less than 10 hours >.< Have a safe trip, sis!